On Healing pt 1

A lot of healing has less to do with showing up but more to do with showing up when you least want to. Those quiet moments, when no one’s around, when no one knows the emotions you hold, when it seems that nothing is there to comfort you. That’s WHEN you need you. To show yourself: that the person on your side, the person that’s been with you your whole life and that is going to continue to be there, even in the midst of forgiving yourself; is you. Whether that means calling a friend, stretching, putting your favorite song on, getting dressed even when you don’t want to, going for a walk, turning to a coloring book, crying, sitting in nature, going in the shower. Invest in that quality time with self. Do it because it will make you feel better. Putting yourself back on YOUR side, not your mind's side, not your emotions side. Not saying the feeling will go away but It will get you out of that loop that tries to convince you that you need to stay there and that those things won’t make you feel better. It’s lying to you because they will. It doesn’t want you to think you have the power to stop this cycle, it wants you to feed into the power it’s having over you at the moment. 

Somatically getting your whole body accustomed to know what it needs during those times to grant your self ease to show your body that you are there to support and soothe it no matter what. Showing yourself you’re deserving of this soft care. A whole piece of integration in the reparenting process or as I’d like to say showing yourself that you can be your own safe place.

- annamarie Maneates